At ten after eight under a dusk-blue Ensenada sky, thirty-eight-year-old Rhea Porter navigated her
ninety-three LeBaron around the potholes on the east end of Avenida Placido. She found a space
outside Boom Boom Carneceria, parked, popped the last warm bite of a glazed papaya concho
into her mouth and chased it with a swig of thermos coffee. She got out, locked her car and
headed toward Joe’s café, two doors down. Between Boom Boom and Joe’s, she passed six little kids
begging for money. She looked away.
Outside Joe’s, she took a breath, opened the door and stepped inside. It wasn’t a cafe anymore.
Gone were the little tables where a child sitting alone for a moment—near the door left ajar—could
slip outside, chasing after a bluebird. Now there was a makeshift stage in the center
of the lightless room. On it, eight stone-faced half-naked women swayed to Dylan’s “Mr. Jones”.
Smelling of Bal de Versailles, lemongrass and cooze, their scent was sweeter than the stagnant breaths
haloing the dozen male customers scattered around the room, watching them.
Man she wanted to leave. She needed to calm herself down; she needed to stop thinking of that blue
bird day long ago. She forced her mind to think of a palatable alternative, a story she could use later,
for work. A few words came: “Eight fat whores looking for cash. Twelve losers looking for love. Me, I was looking for something to eat, then I saw him… ”
There he was, behind the bar that spanned the back wall: a small, graceful man she had once known. He had to be in his sixties now. He looked good, despite everything. When she was a girl, he’d taught her about the joys of rellanos fried in chili butter, the pungence of fresh hoja santa, the particular tang of lemons grown near the sea.
After awhile he looked up and saw her – the lone white American in the place. It took him a
moment, then a smile accordioned his eyes. As she shoved off the wall and headed toward him, she
passed a skinny jackass who thought licking his lips at her was appealing.
She reached the bar. And the bartender. Christ she was nervous. So was he. “Hello Joe.” she stuck
out her hand. He took it, studying her almost familiar face.“Rhea.” It really was her. He held on. “You
look—
” “Tired. Yeah.” She cut him off. She knew what she looked like.
“No…” He let go of her hand.
Yes, she was different. Worn. Troubled. But no, not tired–
She looked around at the stale incarnation of the once charming cafe. “I hate what you’ve done with
the place.”
He laughed, “There’s more money in–” his waving gesture referenced the room – the
“booze and sex”. But there was something else. Another reason he’d given up the sunny cafe. Here
there were “No kids allowed.”
They both let it go. Too hard to talk about. He kept it safe, “Get you a beer?”
She shook her head, “I have a long drive back to LA. Just came for the day.” She stumbled on, not wanting to explain but
needing to, “I saw officer Nala; he’s still working– Detective Nala now–” She could feel his sudden
hope; couldn’t stop it fast enough before he asked,
“Is there some news–?” “About Aggie? No.”
Rhea answered fast, “I thought maybe there was, but no.”
She hated his hope. And her own, hated that it had resurfaced and sent her again back to Baja,
chasing a whisper of news of her lost sister. For nothing. That was that. Neither wanted to think
anymore of the past, even though that’s all they had. Except…
“You still cook?” she asked.
That’s all he needed. He poured her a lime soda, “Give me a few minutes.”
He slipped through a curtain to a back room. Rhea drank. It was good. The moment ruined when she felt the skinny
jackass oozing toward her. She angled away from him and willed more words for the story of which only the food part needed to be true: “He was young and lean – with a promise in his eyes
– of warm summer skin and fat chili-fries. I squeezed a lime into a cold Jarritos and took a swig. He was drinking a San Miguel.”
Jackass moved a stool closer. Man she wanted to punch him but she didn’t. She stayed focused and jotted a few of the words down on a napkin (Jarritos. Promise. San Miguel.) to remember. Jackass faded back.
Eight long minutes later, Joe emerged from the back with a small, fat hunk of sizzling halibut,
nestled on a pillow of tomatillo salsa, drizzled with thick crema, with a side of hot fried tortilla strips.
Full of love. He set it down. T’was a thing of beauty. She swirled the
crema into the tomatillo; turning it a verdant, yummy green. She cut the fish with her fork and dug in.
It was so good it made her laugh.
“Still the best in town.”
“Here or LA?”
“Both.” No more talking. She ate. He watched her. It was good to see her like this, like back when.
She finished; full, for now. “Thank you Joe.” She started to get up.
“Don’t go yet–” He went back through the curtain, into the back room.
The Jackass seized the moment and made his move. He came up behind her. As he put his empty
glass on the bar, he leaned into her, pressing against her, smelling of tobacco and wet cement. She
elbowed him but not too hard – you have to be careful with sleaze. He backed away. He wasn’t happy.
Joe came back with a take-out carton of the salsa and two bags of hot greasy tortilla strips. She
pulled out a twenty. He wouldn’t take it.
“Please, Joe, please– C’mon Joe–” She leaned over the bar, leaned into his face and kissed his cheek, “It wasn’t your fault.” she whispered, “It was mine.” She set the money on the bar. She took the salsa and strips and left.
More words formed, “… I’ve had my share of olive-skinned hunks with sweet Pad Nah and nameless Joes, a’la Diabla.
As she walked toward the door, she felt the Jackass behind her. By the time she reached it, she felt
him breathe. She opened the door and stepped outside.
“…many a mo`le has gotten me through a dark night and I trade it’s secrets for legal tender.”
The air was sharp with the edge it gets just before a Santa Ana has been freed. It got under her skin.
Irritated her. Man she was tired of walking away; hurrying away, holding back. But she did; appeasing herself with: “Ensenada Joe had stopped doing dinner years ago but tonight he cooked after hours for me. This is what I
remember–”
She passed the young beggars, this time she looked at them: two were sisters, holding hands. She
fished in her pockets and thrust whatever money she had left into their hands. “Go home! Vete a casa!”
she snapped. The younger girl grabbed hold of the money. “Vete a casa” Rhea said again, “Ahora. Por
favor.” She gave them a bag of strips too. She walked to her car. She got in and watched them until they
walked away, hopefully to home.
She looked back at Joe’s and saw the Jackass step outside. He had two friends with him. “Here we
go–” she thought. She started her car. They spotted her. She whipped a U and headed up the street, out
of town.
As Rhea hit the outskirts, there were three roads, leading out. One was highway 3, the main paved
road heading north to Tijuana and the US border. There would probably be someone on that road she
could flag down for help, if needed. The second was a dirt road leading to a cluster of squat faded
houses. The third was a cracked blacktop heading northeast, into the open desert.
“…Lanky Dream followed me into the warm night; an easy lust tugging the edge of his smile–”
Rhea checked her rearview; a car was approaching. The three guys were in it. Fuck it. She chose
option three and headed into the desert. They followed.
“–I invited him in.”
The road got bumpy: potholes and scrub growing through the cracks and hares hopping across the
pavement slowed her down. A coyote howled.
“– cacique cream oozed from halibut skin, blistered with butter, cooled with lime…”
The trio gained on her. Her adrenaline soared but she kept her speed steady. Her headlights revealed
a turnout a few hundred yards ahead.
“–the tomatillo teased my mouth with a sweet tang as the dream licked it’s drops off my skin–”
She sped up and as she almost passed it, she swerved into it and spun-out, so that she faced them
when they skidded to a halt, inches from her LeBaron. One had a gun drawn, the other a knife. She was
pretty sure the skinny asshole driving had zip ties.
“The warm flake of white meat in my mouth is where I began–”
She snatched her gun from the console and shot all three, one in the hand, one in the shoulder, one
in the eye. After the screaming, they got the hell out of there.
“…the shared love of good food is where it ends.”
She took a minute to finish her coffee and jot down a few more words.
“It’s everything. Joe’s cafe. Avenida Placido. Get the fish.”
Rhea started the LeBaron, feeling good. Maybe even feeling a little free. As she pulled away she
heard a little “crunch”. Damn. She got out and checked the back of the car. When she’d spun out, she’d
cracked taillight into a rock, breaking the red plastic. She’d just rolled over the bit that had fallen to the
ground. It wasn’t too bad; an easy superglue fix once she got home. The taillight, now white, shone on
the rock she’d hit. It was a small boulder. She’d hit it enough to move it a smidgen. Sticking out from
under it was a slip of paper. Curious, she wedged it out. It was an old, faded receipt from a surf shop in
Redondo Beach. She turned the receipt over.
On the back was a handwritten note, also faded, “Dear Rhea Porter, I am here. Aggie.”
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